life as it is…. …..

December 23, 2011 Leave a comment

meH… exams it’s that time of the year where you start realizing how helpless you are. while writing this i’m just 3 out of 6 papers done… and i don’t feel like writing anymore….

*ah well i’ll slowly catch up on several post… although this took days of procrastination…


Anyway now that exams are over it doesn’t mean I can enjoy my holidays. It just means that phase 1 over start of phase 2 which is my final year project. My exams this time round feels just like any other exam I’ve taken in uni just that this time it started with a BANG and ended with a BOOM…

BANG…. the first paper was horrible could barely count the number of marks i could score…

BOOM…. i was late for my last paper! Well Iwoke up at 9am… and it was raining heavily outside almost couldn’t get a cab and anyway got to the exam hall late for 5min…. another 5min was wasted walking in and out 4 times because first i forgot my pencil case… 2nd cheatsheet… 3rd wrong cheatsheet…

PS: Luckily that last paper wasn’t exactly hard….


Technically speaking this will be my 2nd last semester in uni and while typing this i’m on my way to the last semester of uni. During these 3 years of Uni, I’ve always thought of  the Degree as literally a piece of toilet paper for entry level jobs and your starting pay. Other than this, I think that paper is literally useless. Questions of my life, achievements and what I should have done just floats up in my mind….

Should I have entered uni…?

I never was the study guy, I think I would have fared better sailing on a vessel honing up my hands on skills and also travelling to different countries. Although if that occurred some things might not have been how it is now…. have i made the right choice?

What have I achieved in uni…?

Practically nothing…. i dun think i learnt much since most of the stuff just disappears after exam…. probably the most fufilling is getting the scholarship but all that has got nothing to do with uni nor has it helped me in any way.  Eventually, this has brought back to the 1st question whether entering uni was the right to do….

Since my uni life is coming to a curtains down, overall I do not think it’s such a bad experience with a complete overhaul as compared to my poly life. Meeting up with new friends though i do not know whether they will last throughout my life. Stuff that happened that will last in my memories forever and many many things that i regret that I’ve not done. All these would not happened if I chose otherwise. Another route in life will slowly unveil itself to me though I’m sure where I’ll be heading already…. …..


Somehow the wait is over… yet again I passed another semester scrapped through it with a couple of carrots but still phew… i did it somehow my efforts did not go down the drain. Especially on certain subjects that i was quite certain i was gonna flung them but somehow i did it… Carrots and Bananas are just hard to get, if i ever get them it’s just consolation i guess ._.

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this and that and everything…

October 21, 2011 Leave a comment

Ummm… what was i going to say… complaining about school, life, exams and everything…. all those rambles…

Anyway time is ticking down… 12am soon gonnna grow up soon again but it all doesn’t mean anything. By the time i grow up again the next time, i suppose things will be better or if not more promising I hope… Life still moves on as usual vrOOm vrOOm. 10min countdown pOOf!

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October 16, 2011 Leave a comment

It’s been some time huh since I last visited this press machine >.<! Overwhelming assignments and CAs and dailies of life so I just consolidated everything  and now imma releasing it all…

Let’s see…. well studying hard = scoring well? Not exactly the case as it always have been in Uni, feels more than study hard and study smart >_<  *stares at the overwhelming hill infront of him* Somehow it’s more over whelming when I compare my plight with another friend who studies in Canada. It’s so much more relaxed for him. Up until now, I’ve been asking me this same question over and over again…. have I made the right choice in going to Uni or should I have just gone straight to SAILING rather. FYI studying isn’t my thing but I still chose it :((

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Meh! This has been happening on and on. I wonder is having a girlfriend that important? For every little function or meetup I have with my friends… the first thing they would ask me is…..

Friend: “Do you have a girlfriend?”

Me: “No.”

Friend: “How come?”

Me: “I don’t know.”

Friend: “Why don’t you know?”

Me: “Because I just don’t have one and I’m not chasing for one nor is anyone chasing me.”

…. goes on and on…

There it goes on and on as they try and pry an answer out from me. Eventually they always don’t get an answer out from me simply. No matter what I say it doesn’t exactly help. They’ll just say u’re not trying hard enough…. ah come on i’m not looking for a mate. When the fate and affinity comes I’ll eventually have one why the worry. Thx to all those people who worry for me.

PS: I think I’m the only person who reads my blog so it’s fine.

Well for one who doesn’t have a GF at all. Note none at all in my 24 years of my life, I have like lots of people who come to talk to me about BGR problems like breaking up quarreling and stuff. Sheesh maybe someone who doesn’t have a GF is someone good to talk to, can console and give better advice? I don’t know till now. But I’m more than willing to listen to any problems you all have. On 2 of them I talked to about was both of them broke up… well reason given was the guy couldn’t give girl enough time. Ummm kinda subjective.



Well whatever it is from both cases, I know both the guys here have made lots of effort and given up a lot of their time for their beloved one or used to be beloved one. sigh…. reminds me one of the thing i always tell my friend when they ask if why I don’t have a GF…. I’ll leave that for some time later.

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Finally, I’ve decided to get my guards. The jaw clicking’s still there >.<! Can’t eat food that too big like HEIGHT wise or too hard if not they’ll click even harder. ARGH…! what is this

Anyway the guard’s just preventive measure to stop my unknown grinding and clenching. There’s no cure for it as it is a PSYCHOLOGICAL thing. Ah.. well I told my friend…. “U got a psycho friend!’ LAWL!

Ok that’s all for the day ~_~ early morning 11.40am PRESS MACHINE!





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Dilemma & Answers…

August 27, 2011 Leave a comment

Finding out about certain things that I wish I didn’t know. Getting so close and making it so hard to pull back. Now it seems certainly awkward.

Question is : leaving it as it is? or just cut it?

On another issue…. with regards to my TMJ problem, a visit to the doctor didn’t really give me positive results I am looking for. Too many implications and the bad signs are showing already.

Only time will tell, what I am in for next. Certainly whether it’s good or bad, it will be something I need to face up to.

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There it goes again….

August 23, 2011 Leave a comment


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stress stress….

August 21, 2011 Leave a comment

All the signs are pointing there….

the seemingly unknown grinding and clenching of my tooth which i do not know of….

the small balding patch…!?!?! wth!?!?

I never knew i was so stressed until today >__> and come on! I’m not feeling anything ><! I think my heart and mental health is like a rock. Kinda feels void of any feelings or emotions already or maybe it’s just numbed…

Time to fix these two things….. firstly a visit to my dentist to get a scan of  TMJs (for those who do not know what this is google it up )

Next on…. hair growing!? OMG… i’m getting old already 😦

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