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Somewhere… Somehow… Something… part 1 maybe?

February 6, 2012 Leave a comment

In certain parts of ur life, time has gotten a little faster sometimes it is moving a little. I suppose I’m the kind waiting for time to pass by. 24 years into my schooling life going into the 25th year I can say, I’m just very sick of this studying as some of my friends my vouch. They probably think the same way. Also due to some other reasons I guess I wished this time would move faster. Everyone’s been saying time is running out you need to take action but I think it’s a good thing that this time is running out without me doing anything. I suppose I do want to see how things will actually roll out and settle down in the future. It could either end up the same way it is now or a complete changeover in my life. With the possible departure of 1, it could mean that that whole line of domino that came along with it would start falling and push me back to square 1.

I suppose this can link me up to the fact that:

One can never realize that have lost something important to them, until it is too late for them and it slips away from them. At least to me, it’s like a fisherman’s game with a fish but that fish is never going to be caught. Imagine a fisherman with his fishing rod, with his prey hooked on, he starts reeling in saying “YES, I’ve caught something!” but they always say never count your chickens before they are born. This particular fish is still not caught, it’s just that the fisherman has suddenly grasp something important to him creating a link between the two of them. Even while the fish is up on the boat, it’s still not considered caught as long as it has this will to jump out or by chance gets swept out of the ocean. When that happens the link between them is lost.

By then when that happens, one starts realizing how important that certain something is to them by then it could have been too late. The end result can just be irreversible and that mental scar unknowingly. It just needs a catalyst to churn out that reaction just like how Chemical A & B in Chemistry gives a kaBoom effect.

It just happens that one is just too complacent taking everything around them for granted. Nothing can be there for you all the time. An example… your parents they can be there to see you through a certain portion of your life. They do grow old mind you and leave you (die). Things will never be the same all the time… people change and evolve… situation changes… things happen… That’s just life isn’t it, unpredictable.

Like my game of  fisherman catching the fish, we are all holding many fishing lines. Whether to reel in or out,  both of which has its limits. The fishing line is never infinite…  too much and u loose sight… too little the line might just snap. Maybe you just need to change your game plan completely and it’ll all work out All the time making decisions, sure people around can make a difference and influence what you say. Some inspirational some are full crap and bullshit (no offense to anyone but well no one reads this anyway… courteous y sake). In the end of the day, the decision boils down to you. IMO, any decision you make so long as you’re happy it’s fine isn’t it. You’re living your own life for now that is unless you have some commitment that complicates your life to a certain extent. To some or possibly all of us, these decisions are possibly the most dreaded one could ever make. Though the worst thing one can do is not make any decision and leave things hanging by the thread. Potentially it’s like walking ticking time bomb. kaBoom it goes anytime any moment.

…. okay…. enough of all these just 1 part i hope…. *shrugs*

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life as it is…. …..

December 23, 2011 Leave a comment

meH… exams it’s that time of the year where you start realizing how helpless you are. while writing this i’m just 3 out of 6 papers done… and i don’t feel like writing anymore….

*ah well i’ll slowly catch up on several post… although this took days of procrastination…


Anyway now that exams are over it doesn’t mean I can enjoy my holidays. It just means that phase 1 over start of phase 2 which is my final year project. My exams this time round feels just like any other exam I’ve taken in uni just that this time it started with a BANG and ended with a BOOM…

BANG…. the first paper was horrible could barely count the number of marks i could score…

BOOM…. i was late for my last paper! Well Iwoke up at 9am… and it was raining heavily outside almost couldn’t get a cab and anyway got to the exam hall late for 5min…. another 5min was wasted walking in and out 4 times because first i forgot my pencil case… 2nd cheatsheet… 3rd wrong cheatsheet…

PS: Luckily that last paper wasn’t exactly hard….


Technically speaking this will be my 2nd last semester in uni and while typing this i’m on my way to the last semester of uni. During these 3 years of Uni, I’ve always thought of  the Degree as literally a piece of toilet paper for entry level jobs and your starting pay. Other than this, I think that paper is literally useless. Questions of my life, achievements and what I should have done just floats up in my mind….

Should I have entered uni…?

I never was the study guy, I think I would have fared better sailing on a vessel honing up my hands on skills and also travelling to different countries. Although if that occurred some things might not have been how it is now…. have i made the right choice?

What have I achieved in uni…?

Practically nothing…. i dun think i learnt much since most of the stuff just disappears after exam…. probably the most fufilling is getting the scholarship but all that has got nothing to do with uni nor has it helped me in any way.  Eventually, this has brought back to the 1st question whether entering uni was the right to do….

Since my uni life is coming to a curtains down, overall I do not think it’s such a bad experience with a complete overhaul as compared to my poly life. Meeting up with new friends though i do not know whether they will last throughout my life. Stuff that happened that will last in my memories forever and many many things that i regret that I’ve not done. All these would not happened if I chose otherwise. Another route in life will slowly unveil itself to me though I’m sure where I’ll be heading already…. …..


Somehow the wait is over… yet again I passed another semester scrapped through it with a couple of carrots but still phew… i did it somehow my efforts did not go down the drain. Especially on certain subjects that i was quite certain i was gonna flung them but somehow i did it… Carrots and Bananas are just hard to get, if i ever get them it’s just consolation i guess ._.

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